I have always encouraged others to live a healthy, balanced lifestyle. A life that promotes happiness, confidence and overall well-being both physically and mentally. Well, it’s time I start taking my own advice.
After Christmas each year my husband Joey and I have a tradition of taking time to reflect on the past year and to set goals for the year ahead. This typically occurs on our trip back to Vancouver after an extended holiday visit in Calgary. The conversation was a bit different for me this year. I lacked clarity and experienced anxiety when thinking of my future, specifically the year ahead. 2017 was, well let’s just say it was an ‘interesting’ year. There were plenty of highs and lows – I experienced one of the happiest most memorable days of my life when we got married in August. It was a day I will never forget and it was a much needed highlight amidst a year of both personal and professional confusion.
I have been in the health and fitness industry for 11 years now. Starting with my first fitness comp in 2007, to becoming a certified trainer in 2010 and starting my online business in 2013. Throughout this time I experienced a lot of growth but that growth didn’t come without it’s challenges and failures along the way. My fitness career started out as a bit of a whirlwind. I won my pro card in my first competition, landed 7 magazine covers, traveled to the worlds biggest expos and had sponsorship contracts with some of the industries leading brands. Sounds like a dream right? Sure, at first it was fun, but for some reason the excitement fizzled out quickly and I began to purposely back away from the scene of booty shorts, spray tans and expo booths.
Sure, at first it was fun, but for some reason the excitement fizzled out quickly and I began to purposely back away from the scene of booty shorts, spray tans and expo booths.
Not that I have a hate on for the industry at all, I have so many fun memories from that time in my life and made so many amazing friends that I still have today, but the reality was that I didn’t ever feel like my authentic self and something inside me knew that this chapter of my life was just a stepping stone towards something greater. After experiencing the pressures of putting my physical appearance before my actual health I became committed to helping other women find confidence and the feeling of empowerment by taking control of their health through proper nutrition and working out while maintaining a sustainable and realistic lifestyle. After launching my website I felt I was on the right path and was proud of the work I was doing. Not only was I supporting others but my time and efforts were put into building a profitable business for myself.
Jump forward a few years and my goal of sharing information and helping others is still the priority. However, in the process of building my own business I somehow lost site of my authentic self again *sigh*. So much of my time has been spent trying to keep up on social media, the latest trends, learning about SEO, marketing, analytics, sales funnels, content curation, accounting…. seriously my brain hurts just thinking about it all. I burnt out and continuously found myself asking what am I doing? What in the actual F am I doing besides wasting time comparing myself to others, scrambling to keep up, worrying about staying relevant and striving to make ends meet? This isn’t what I imagined. This isn’t why I started this.
“What in the actual F am I doing besides wasting time comparing myself to others, scrambling to keep up, worrying about staying relevant and striving to make ends meet?”
During my 2018 Live challenge that took place in January I reminded the participants frequently to remember their ‘why’. Why did they sign up for the challenge and why is reaching their goal important. In asking this question I was forced to ask myself the same thing. I realized that my focus had shifted away from my ‘why’ and more towards what I thought I had to do to stay relevant in a massive pool of online trainers and fitness programs. My why, as I’ve already mentioned, has always been to help others but it’s also to have fun doing it and to live a life that I love – and that’s what was missing. A life where I am free from the desk job, a life where I have the opportunity to be active, meet like-minded people, continuously learn and share my experiences with others. Instead, my reality has become sitting at my desk all day, feeling a bit isolated and stressed out. Instead of feeling happiness, fulfillment and freedom I’ve been experiencing feelings of worry and frustration. How long can I keep doing this? I’m only getting older! Wait – am I too old to do this? Am I just wasting time? Am I just a massive failure!!?
Whoa Heather, chill. It’s never too late. The perfect time to change things and create the life that you want is right now. Breathe.
“The perfect time to change things and create the life that you want is right now. Breathe.”
So what’s next?
This post is an accountability post, because I’ve always believed that being true to your word is a trait that truly defines your character. If I say I’m going to do something I will do it. So here it is – As in any other relationship if you don’t take the time to take care of yourself first, you can’t give the best version of yourself to your partner. So I’m taking a journey this year to force myself out of my comfort zone and find a way to achieve true life balance. Not just with dieting and working out but by trying new things, going new places and connecting with people all the while using my own workout programs to optimize my health.. Along the way I will be documenting my experience through another passion of mine – video! I have so many memories of being a kid and creating homemade movies and putting on performances for my family. Even though I was ridiculously shy, being on camera brought something out in me. Being able to tell a story and evoke emotion in others brought me such happiness.
What can you expect?
I will be exploring new places, new foods, new activities and will be discovering ways to stay active and stay on top of my health as I go. And I’ll be sharing it all through my YouTube Channel and this blog. It’s all about living a life that I love and helping you to do the same. The adventure starts with a month long trip starting in Japan – a destination that has been on mine and Joey’s bucket list for quite some time.
“It’s all about living a life that I love and helping you to do the same.”
The truth is, at this point I still haven’t figured it all out, and it’s still a little scary but, I know that I’m on the right path. It won’t always be easy but I know that taking the leap will be worth it. If there’s an area in your life that feels out of balance, you feel stuck, worried or frustrated – My biggest hope is that you will relate to my journey, the successes and the struggles, and will find the inspiration necessary to take action in your own life. And yes, I will continue to create workouts and programs that produce real results and that you can do from anywhere- because we’re going places baby!
If you’ve read this far, thank you for being my source of accountability. I want to connect with you and hear where you’re going this year and what areas of your life may need a new action plan. Comment below or send me a message I would love to hear from you.
This is it. This is where it begins. I’ve purchased a bunch of new camera gear to take on the road with me and in my next post I will be sharing all these fun new toys and my plans for the next couple of months. Stay tuned my friends,